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  • Crystal Meth Addiction: Shocking Medical Facts, Dangers of Street Meth, and the Truth About Dependence

    Crystal Meth Addiction: Shocking Medical Facts, Dangers of Street Meth, and the Truth About Dependence

    Forget everything you think you know about meth addiction—because the real story isn’t just about chasing a high. What if meth dependence is actually your brain’s desperate bid to maintain basic function, not reckless pleasure-seeking? Discover why meth users often aren’t after euphoria, but are simply trying to feel “normal” enough to get through the day. This eye-opening perspective will change how you see drug dependence, exposing the urgent neurochemical needs driving survival, not escapism. If you care about understanding addiction, you can’t afford to miss this.

    1. Differentiating Dependence from Recreational Addiction

    Dependence means needing a drug just to feel normal, while recreational addiction is about using a drug to feel good or escape problems. With dependence, the brain gets used to the drug, so daily life becomes hard without it. For people who use meth, it’s often about trying to get through the day, not about getting high. Knowing this difference helps us see that many meth users just want to function, not chase pleasure.

    At first, people might use drugs for fun or to escape. But if they use them often, their bodies start to rely on the drugs to feel normal. What began as a search for a good feeling turns into a need, where avoiding feeling sick or bad is the main reason they keep using.

    2. Neurochemical Underpinnings of Stimulant Dependence

    Using meth for a long time messes up how the brain works, especially with chemicals like dopamine and norepinephrine that control reward, motivation, and focus. After a while, the brain stops making or using these chemicals properly. This can leave people feeling unmotivated, unable to focus, and struggling with everyday tasks unless they use meth. In fact, their brains may act like they have severe attention problems, which means medical help with the right kind of stimulant might be useful.

    Even when people with meth dependence want real medical help, they’re often put in rehab programs that don’t give them the kind of medicine their brains need. These programs often don’t work—up to 95% of people end up back where they started, still needing meth to function. The real problem is that doctors often think meth dependence is just about getting high, so they don’t offer safe, prescription stimulants that could help. It’s important to see the difference between just wanting pleasure and truly needing help to function, so people can get the right treatment and medicine to help them live their lives.

    3. The Hazards of Unregulated Street Meth

    The dangers of street meth go far beyond just being dependent on the drug. Street meth is made in illegal labs without safety rules or proper equipment. Because of this, the drug’s strength and purity change from batch to batch. It’s often mixed with other harmful chemicals, like heavy metals or industrial cleaners, which can make it even more dangerous to your health. Since people never really know what they’re getting, there’s a bigger chance of taking too much or getting poisoned.

    These extra chemicals cause more damage to the brain and body, making problems like memory loss, mood swings, and organ failure much worse. The unpredictable strength of street meth also leads people to go through cycles of binging and withdrawal, as they keep trying to feel “normal” but end up feeling even more unwell if the dose is too strong or full of bad substances.

    On top of that, the fact that meth is illegal pushes people into risky situations. They have to deal with unsafe sellers, worry about getting in trouble with the law, and face sudden changes in supply that can introduce even more dangerous drugs. Without medical help, health problems are often ignored or punished instead of treated properly. This cycle makes people feel alone and keeps them from reaching out for help when they need it.

    4. Pharmaceutical Amphetamines: A Safer Alternative

    Unlike street meth, prescription stimulants are made with strict safety and quality checks, so every dose is clean and reliable. When these medicines are given by a doctor and used as directed, the risks are much lower, and the effects are more predictable. This shows that the safest way to help people is not by punishing them, but by offering careful, science-based medical treatment that meets their real needs.

    Medically prescribed stimulants—like Adderall—allow doctors to give people the exact dose they need. Special time-release versions keep the medicine working steadily, preventing sudden highs and lows. With a doctor’s help, treatment can be changed as needed to work best and keep side effects under control. Because of strict rules and careful supervision, using these medicines is much safer and more predictable than taking illegal drugs.

    Conclusion: What Healing Can Look Like

    Healing need not mean total abstinence from all stimulants—it can mean transitioning from toxic, unregulated substances to safe, evidence‐based treatments. When a stable dose of medication restores a person’s ability to grocery shop, work, read, and connect, that restoration is nothing short of life-saving.

    By acknowledging dependence as a treatable neurochemical need and providing regulated amphetamines, we offer a pathway from unmanageable survival to sustainable living.

  • Meth is a need

    Every one around me who is allegedly trying to heal me insist that I can stop using crystal meth if only I gave myself the will to do so. The doctors won’t prescribe anything pharmaceutical to treat crystal meth addiction: they only prescribe willpower to the meth addicts and let them fail 95% of the time at stopping crystal meth use.

    95% of regular meth users never stop using crystal meth. That is appaling! The so-called experts actually have no expertise when it comes to treating crystal meth addiction. They know very well that the drug ruins lives like it ruined mine; and yet, users simply just don’t find the willpower to simply just not use?

    My psychiatrist claims that I use crystal meth for the pleasure it gives me: that is as far from the truth of experiencing it as it can be. I don’t do meth for fun. Maybe I had some fun on meth at the start; it sure helped my rapist, who got me addicted, to rape me four years ago. I realize today that it was his intention from the get go: ruin my life by giving me meth addiction.

    The police didn’t do anything to help me when he was still sending death threats and harassing me after the rape. But the police did force so many times to be at the mercy of psychiatrists by tearing me out of my appartment without any of my belongings, sometimes dragging me out completely naked in the streets of downtown MontrĂŠal while mocking me.

    Psychiatrists, no matter what I tell them always declare me an imminent danger so the judges will order my forced hospitalization during which psychiatrists have all the power over me; where they too often do illegal things just because they have a team of Milgramian subjects whose jobs is to obey all of the doctors’ orders, and since the psychiatrist can always invent a medical reason to mistreat, blackmail and torture a patient, I can never get any point across to ombudsmans or complaints commissionners for, to them, it’s just part of the treatment, and it’s easier for everyone to not do like me, the alledged psychotic who calls it torture, for it would embarrass too many people.

    It has been years now that my meth addiction is never treated by the doctors. They simply blame me for using, write no prescription for it, but psychiatrist Karin Grace Goddard gets a court order to force upon me the medication of the side effects of my crystal meth use. Just a few weeks after getting the court order, she wad shouting at the top of her voice in the cafeteria of the psychiatry unit “I WILL NEVER PRESCRIBE YOU AMPHETAMINES!”. I will never forget that moment because it made her look crazier that I ever had.

    My psychiatrist, to whom I am bound for the next three years KNOWS that I need to use meth/amphetamines to be functional. I believe it is an open secret in the medical field: everyone knows crystal meth users are actually dependant on the drug to function somewhat normally; that they are like dead from within when they are sober. Yet, they still won’t prescribe a replacement drug like Adderall, which, on the highest dosage, cuts the craving for crystal meth completely!

    There is much more money to be made keeping a whole segment of the population trapped in crystal meth addiction and incessantly treat the psychotic side effects of crystal meth use with antipsychotics that give so many side effects themselves that they make another buck selling the pills to treat those side effects as well.

    It’s like meth addicts are forced to being sick because they give us no other choice than to drink polluted water, keeping the bottled water safely stored anf heavily controlled, and win money by treating the sickness from drinking polluted water. Then, when I insist that with 60 mg of Adderall, I can go about my business without even thinking of consuming meth, and that it is the prescription I need to stop using meth, they told me that since there is a risk I might mix the two, I could die from this treatment and they wouldn’t take the risk, even when I insisted I’d sign a discharge. They simply decided I was in no position to give consent to a medical treatment. Why? Because they had already declared me psychotic from the meth use.

    My last hospitalization lasted well over 3 months, and was cut short because of two reasons: 1) the official reason being that I smuggled in meth after their constant refusal to give me the pharmaceutical version of it, when I had told them on day 1 of my hospitalization that without Adderall, I use meth, and since using was against the treatment plan that was decided for me by the psychiatrist who dismissed my input everytime, and ended up blaming me (IMAGINE! She decides EVERYTHING; ALL my input is dismissed; and SHE BLAMES ME when she fails following through with her own plan); 2) the real reason is that meth gave me back the confidence and strenght to not only resist their constant abuse, but to troll them back and insult them like they deserve to be insulted. I never said anything crass; they simply lost their shit when I told them “let’s talk in 30 minutes, I’m busy sending an email that won’t send” (it was yet another complaint about their abuse of power). I didn’t show them respect when they only worked to try and break me in for the past month, (doing things like cutting my access to my phone and laptop for 6 weeks in a row until I start cooperating with them; not prescribing adequate medication to counter the side effects of the antipsychotics I’m forced to recieve; belittling mex getting me to collaborate with them while they torture me). All that ended with them making me a homeless person without notice.

    Many of the ressources are barred to those who consume because they want to protect only those who are “trying” sobriety for some time when it gets too hard to go without these ressources as a homeless person. Choosing sobriety when there is a meth addiction, is kind of like choosing to become a zombie, a living dead: it’s a choice no one would rationally make unless it’s that or being simply dead.

    Using crystal meth is not a choice. It’s a sentence. I’m as forced by my neurons to use crystal meth as I am forced by the legal and medical system to be injected with antipsychotics. I don’t decide I’m going to use meth. I just always end up using. I don’t choose to always end up using. I just use. I use. I use because I need to, and not because it is more fun. I use because I need to feel alive! I need to be able to do the things that make life worth living, like writing, build websites, draw, talk to friends; and I also need to do the things I need to survive, like find an appartment, run errands, make important phone calls. These are all the things I cannot do anymore, without using crystal meth.

    I need meth.

    I didn’t choose meth. Meth has chosen me. When I want to choose Adderall instead, I am told bullshit reasons why doctors won’t make that possible.

    I need meth.

    And without realizing it, organized crime, namely the russian mafia is closing in on me and tries to use the fact that I need them, since I need the meth they supply, to try and enroll me into selling drugs myself. I kindly refused saying I’m still on sick leave from work, that I still can’t work a job after 4 years without working because no one is actually treating my problem.

    I need meth.

    I know I need meth, because I have to use meth before I can do the things I need to do. I know I need meth because needing is actually what meth feels like. I use meth like I drink water. I don’t tend to overuse it; I just smoke my crystal meth when I feel the thirst.

    I need meth.

    I know I need meth because it had ruined my life and I still use it! It’s worse than an abusive partner that people have to leave at some point. I’ve reached the point where those who are supposed to, even paid to, take care of me and look after my interests are actually acting against me, and attacking my livelihood and thus attacking me, while blaming ME for having have used; and still be using. We are trying to destroy me because of my meth addiction and we still don’t prescribe anything for me to stop using meth. The problem is not meth use, it’s the addiction, the dependance. Meth use is the symptom, not the illness.

    I need meth.

    Like the 95% of the regular crystal meth users who never quit using. I’m just like them! I never stop because

    I need meth.

    Did you figure out that all the social workers, doctors, helpers, nurses, and other types of paid workers whose jobs is to treat crystal meth addicts are failing at their jobs? 5% is far from a passing grade. Yet, they are still credible blabbering next to be because

    I need meth and they don’t.

    The medical system fails to treat 95% of meth addicts and the professionals that are paid to treat us always blame us when they fail, and they fail 95% of the time! 100% in my case, because

    I need meth and they won’t.

    Why would I still use it if I didn’t need it, when my family and my doctors MADE me homeless because of it?

    I do need meth.

    And if you don’t believe me when I say I need meth, I will not believe you: I will not believe that you don’t believe me and I will believe that you conspire to ruin my life in the biggest gaslighting scheme in history.

    I need help, but no one helps.

    No one helps, because no one wants to help.

    95% of meth users never stopping is the system failing them on purpose.

    I need meth but you don’t need to hear that.